2021.11.29 04:46 perceptioncity Giving my parents one chance. (My story)
My childhood was "good" but mentally it was ruined by tscc. I've never actually believed it was true but my entire life, the only option I had for progression was in the church.
I had told my entire family I wouldn't be serving a mission and for a few months my life basically stalled. I realized personally that I was decaying. After many days of (not religious) thinking. I decided why not go? Why not have a real life experience? This is exactly what I need!
Or course my family was crazy about my choice blah blah. My stake president was the most amazing person I've ever met and he was a large part of the reason I went.
I was assigned to slave in the Philippines.
I was only out for ~2 months before I was home again. There was a point where I was self harming and told my MP in person that I wanted and needed to go home. Never listened. I kept harming myself. I would try to make myself sick by not eating so I could go home "honorably"
Eventually I just ran away. My plan was to go to the us embassy and get them to help me recover my passport that was being withheld from me. However, everyone somehow knew I ran away within about 10 mins. They found me at the bus station waiting fora bus. I was then told I could leave. Fast forward, I'm at byu. Someone leaves themselves logged in so I send a bunch of spam emails to his classmates as a joke. I got suspended.
Later I reapplied and got back in but dropped out after a few semesters.
Outside of tscc I don't have any social life. All I had was my laptop. I didn't have any social skills, I had no idea how to do stuff without my parents. So I just stayed inside all day and learned how to use tech. This resulted in me being able to make enough money to live off of at least for now.
At some point it's likey life split. I stared realizing I existed as something completely contrary to what I thought I was. Something I could love and be proud of. It felt like I was discovering the missing like. The reason I had no friends or social skills.
That journey evolved into my entire life right now.
At some point maybe about a year ago, I really drifted away from tscc because I was realizing I didn't need religion to feel good about myself. In fact, it was like the less I associated with religion, the more happy I was able to be.
About 6 months ago, I had a life changing experience where my body became completely animal. Something I have never experienced or even heard of. I was exhibiting all these masculine and dominant features and characteristics that I didn't even know were possible.
This resulted in me traveling accross the world to confront my parents and show them the amazing way of life and existing that I had found. It was like I was a lone Wolfe returning to my pack with the most amazing news ever. It was like an instinctual behavior.
I gave both my parents a real opportunity to change their lives and they didn't take it seriously. They dismissed me.
Fast forward to about a month ago. My life hit an all time low. Addiction, no emotional control, voices, demons, the whole thing. I tried killing myself many times during about a week period. Luckily I'm still here and in a (slightly) better mental state.
This experience was very very scary for me. I never felt like I was attempting because I was "sad" or "lonely". Rather I was sick of knowing I was something amazing and not having any means to express that thing that I am.
This led me to go the deepest into my memories I ever have and I realized what the missing price was.
During my own journey of growth, I had basically just left the church alone. Never thinking that it might all be fake. Never thinking that it could possibly have had a negative mental effect. I had never looked into anti Mormon literature ever in my life (out of my belief that it wasn't evil)
However realizing that I literally didn't have a will to live, drove me to reevaluate everything, resulting in my realizing the reality of my situation and my own, as well as my family's, relationship with this cult group.
I began to make new connections about my trauma and mental issues that I never had been able to before. And then I realized, when I went to confront my parents the first time, it was to show them how much better my life had gotten and how much better theirs could be.
However, now I realize that what I was actually doing, subliminally, was showing them that I had discarded the identity that they had given (forced) me to be. (Temple Worthy priesthood holder RM 🤢)
So I'm here in the airport, already 1/4 around the world on my way to tell them the reality of what's going on.
Without being rude or pushy, I'm going to offer them the choice of accepting the truth of their reality or I'm going to walk out of their lives forever.
I love my parents but they're both weak people currently. I don't need them to survive. I don't need to prove anything to them. Ive spend long periods, especially as a teen, away from and ignoring them. This won't be an issue.
They're aware that I'm a smart person. This feels like the only fair thing I can do for myself.
The thing that kills me the most is that I took advice from the people that should have had my best interest, but didn't.
Thanks for reading. I'm excited and also terrified for the next week. Any questions are welcome.
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2021.11.29 04:46 frikler /KOKODI/ Ethereum NFT project.
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2021.11.29 04:46 gannongonzo College Student needing advice regarding pc/laptop/tablet and storage/hardware
I’m a college student at Cal Poly SLO who needs some advice. For some background, I’m a computer science major concentrating in machine learning and artificial intelligence. Currently, I own a laptop (asus gl552vw) and a gaming pc I built 5ish years ago (1080ti, i7, 16 gigs). Right now, I’m using TeamViewer to transfer files/remote in from my laptop to my pc because I’m on university wifi. I don’t ssh anymore because i assume I’d need to portforward? I’m looking at holiday deals and I’m thinking about updating my current tech situation.
Issue #1: Is there a better way to access files (code, textbooks, pdfs, etc) from both my pc and my laptop? Can I make use of my pc’s hardware from my laptop? Is the best way to use a service/vm like from google’s cloud or aws or something? I honestly don’t know a whole lot about all this, but I use to ssh into my pc from my laptop when I lived at home.
Issue #2: Carrying my laptop around all day can be quite the hassle. It doesn’t have good battery life (3-4 hours at the very max) so I have to carry the laptop and the charger around. Honestly, I write my notes by hand in all my classes (even cs classes), so it’s probably not very necessary. I was planning on buying a slimmer laptop, but I’m scared this won’t be powerful enough to run some of the neural networks and other ML/AI I work on. This isn’t a problem tho if I can make use of my PC’s gpu from anywhere (back to issue #1). My other idea is to get a tablet to take notes and write a little code on. Once again, if I can connect my pc, laptop, and tablet to all share files somehow (issue #1), then I’d feel a lot better about leaving my laptop at home when I know I won’t need it. If this is the best situation, is the Samsung Tab S7 a good choice? I haven’t had the best time with apple phones/tablets and windows/linux pc’s.
Issue #3 (low priority): My pc was running at like 98% of it’s ram capacity. I checked the resource manager and there was the normal stuff like chrome and Firefox but there was also a McAfee program eating up most of the ram. I’ve temporarily disabled McAfee, but I’m on my dad’s McAfee subscription and I would like to keep it. I do a lot of ram intensive stuff, so maybe I should upgrade from 16-32 gigs of ram? There’s a good cyber Monday deal on Amazon that I might take advantage of.
Sorry for the long post. If anyone has any advice, I would love to hear it in the comments or a dm. Also, sorry for such a short notice, but I would like to take advantage of the cyber Monday deals tomorrow. I hate spending money (I rarely buy anything), so if there are any cheap solutions I’m all ears.
(This is a repeat post from techsupport. I will update with a link to whichever is answered)
Laptop: Asus ROG GL552VW
Tablet: Samsung Tab S7
Ram: Cyber Monday Ram
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I'm having an issue where once I select "Individual" and click on "Next", the ATF website will log me out and bring me back to the login page. The website will do everything else; it just won't progress past the "Applicant Type" page without logging me out and redirecting to the login screen. Thanks in advance for any assistance with troubleshooting this.
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2021.11.29 04:46 sammiefh Did you participate in non fiction november?
I think it’s a challenge started by abookolive on youtube but I’m not sure. You can adjust it however you want, the only rule is that you need to read atleast one non fiction book. It’s basically just to try to get people to read more non fiction. So if you already read non fiction you can challenge yourself to go from one non fiction a month to two or from three to four or whatever you want!
I don’t necessarily read non fiction every month, it switches. Some months I will read four non fictions and others none at all. This month I only did the one but I had a bunch of other great books that I wanted to read! So have you participated? Did you know about it?
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I don’t think they’re “his” restrictions. I dislike Kody, but he’s showing signs of defeat this season, where as last he was so defensive and rude.
Robyn is cray cray.
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Does anyone have the Davenport, and how does it fit on you? Will it be too small for me?
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